I’m well known as suer-hero fan, especially the Batman (Christian Bale), Superman (Dean Cain), spiderman (Tobey Maguire, Tom Holland) and Cyclops (James Marsden is the best), I admired them from far away, felt their words, absorbed their energy and most likely they helped me build my armor, my wall and my defense and offense, yet they failed to help me deal with failure.
All superhero’s story used to focus on the good side, and how they save the world or the moment. How are they admirable by all, and how they can change everything… and don’t get me wrong, they do change lives, when we are crashed by life, when we are looking for a hero to save us.
Over the years I’ve grown up, my attachment to superhero followed me everywhere, like water flow that is going on its own direction, and for a while I used to think of myself as a superhero, that’s saving people lives and influencing them… and you got it right… I’ve realized that I’m not influencing anyone’s life, on the contraire I’m losing myself and living in a bubble… and I need to be saved, and the villain in my own story, and the agenda is self-distraction.
And how to you get out of this situation?
Well, to be honest, it’s not easy at all. The process is full of doubts dispersed everywhere, every time you take one step forward, crashing one obstacle I see the rest laying their waiting for me with a smile, knowing that there’s always a chance to beat me up, knocking me and keeping me down.
As always, as a given power in me, from the top of my head I keep facing it, realizing that each and every time, and educate myself, I read more I will get better at it, I will know how to be my own superhero!
The struggle is real, and it’s common for most of us, and our own hero’s will show u, the minute we understand that we are enough, that it will start and end in us and with us, as individuals… all we need is to water the good in us, to keep it growing, knowing that we are whole with the bad, it’s there for a reason, if only I gave it chance earlier.
After a year of ups and downs, changes that I took obviously, it all had float up, making me facing my own demons and fighting them, and win… I AM MY OWN HERO